my addiction?

I can't go a day without it. My thoughts return to it throughout the day, whether I'm at work or at home. I have a simultaneous love/hate relationship with it. I wish I could cut it out or go longer stretches without it. I know that it is bad for me when I don't use it in moderation. Sometimes I use it when I think my wife won't see me. Often I'll cut away from playing with my children for it. It controls me instead of the other way around more often than I'd like to admit. I crave more access to it. I continue to use it long after I know I shouldn't. I often feel powerless to it's grip over me.

I'm ashamed of these things.


(the internet)